To stake all one's life on a single moment, to risk everything on one throw, whether the stake be power or pleasure, I care not - there is no weakness in that.

在千钧一发的时刻，孤注一掷，或拿权力或拿快乐作为赌注，我不在乎–这怎么能算是软弱。

Then I made a trade that cannot make all one's life with respect to risk danger in desperation…

于是我就铤而走险做了一个一辈子都不能做的行业…