One has to abandon the total disorder of oneself.

人必须彻底抛弃他自身的混乱。

This is a kind of unfilial to abandon oneself, to oneself, without charge, despise the foolish behavior.

这是一种不孝，放弃自己，对自己毫不负责，轻视生命的愚昧行为。

Pledge to oneself never to abandon until...

对自己发誓未……之前决不放弃。