My experienced opponent will rape me at chess.

象棋比赛里，对手很有经验，赢我很容易。

I was a foolish young virgin and so I permitted him to rape me one night.

我还是一个很傻的黄毛丫头呢，于是一天夜里我允许他***了我。

Play 'rape fantasy.' it actually scared me how into it he was. I felt like I saw his dark side.

玩‘绳子把式’。这个真正的吓着我了，他的内在到底是个什么样的人。我觉得我看见了他的黑暗面。