Not only is she aware of her physical repulsiveness, she turns it to her advantage.

她不仅意识到自己的丑陋，还把它转变成本身的优势。

Each person is an isolated island. The more we wish to become a part of it, the more repulsiveness and resistance, which we don't know where they come, we feel.

“每个人都是一座孤岛”，愈是希望成为其一部分，愈是感到强大不知何来的排斥和阻力。